Everything

Stop your coming 

For a second.

I am not ready, 

I can’t empty so

Quickly.

For all that I’ve seen,

From the abyss and beyond,

I could not make my halls

echo strength so obscene.

Icicles block the rushing 

energies. No delicate dichotomy

that would elevate this 

creative lethargy. 

My slender orpines 

waned without their

forever glory. Dropped 

the wine glass to write this story.

You left this place for no one 

knows what. I poured this 

chaos many times, but it 

ended up blunt.

How can I explain one’s 

extinct being, when I see,

feel, hear and touch them

with my mind’s farseeing. 

What now? How to carry 

this tablet? Its heavy and 

morphed states make 

it too much to handle.

If I put yours away, 

Will it haunt my day?

If it shatters to pieces,

will my memory stay?

All I want to know 

is everything about passing.

Let me talk to the ferryman

so I can stop guessing. 

Soul, don’t fail me now.

Harness stellar sparks 

that gather day and night. 

And you, you must go.

I know this next chapter 

no one will show. I send 

you away with my love. 

Find your peace, 

Find your rest,

Find it at the eternal place. 

Kissing you goodbye. 

Kissing you goodbye.

Rest in peace Peter.

I am kissing you goodbye.

- A 

(wrote this a year ago when he passed away but did not have the willingness to share it. Now that some time went by, this note will stay here for you. I miss you a lot and I hope we can chat one day again <3)